Tuesday, April 18, 2006

Everything is falling down around me... nothing has been the same in my life since I lost my grandpa, I mean Amber made me feel better yeah, but I mean she also broke my heart too, but I'm not going to let a broken heart get in my way of things. Things between me n her were just not meant to be n I'm finally realizing that, but the one thing that I'm so scared of is losing her all together. I don't know what I'd do if I did. I mean she's been there for me...always.. well.. not always.. but since I've known her she has. I mean when my grandpa died she was the first person I told.. n talked to..well I didn't really talk.. I just cried while we was on the phone.. but I mean nobody else I knew would do that, just call me up and listen to me cry, like shes the bestest friend that I got, and honestly I'd die without her, cause if it wasn't for her.. I'd be dead already.. I know that I can't be with her n I'm fine with that, but I'm always going to have feelings for her n I don't know why people just can't accept that. I mean everybody online gotta be bitchin at me and things and I'm so sick of it. I love her.. so fucking what! I know she has a girlfriend, n I'm not going to come between them, I'd feel too bad about it. But that doesn't mean that I need to stop writing about her n loving her, cause I'm always going to love her n I'm going to write about her, even if people don't like it.. I don't care anymore.. Okay... I'm done.....

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At 6:55 PM, Blogger ♥___Kid.™ said...

I'm sorry about the fone call...and i'm sorry for the things i said..im sorry ive been so sad..and im sorry i always ruin things for you..i hope we can be bestest friends forever...nd i wish that i was there for u more then i am..i mean im not always there to help u when u need it n u know that...nd im sorri im not

 
At 7:49 PM, Blogger ♥___Kid.™ said...

wow write much? lol..i love too babe..nd we will be the two old ladies n wally world making asses of ourselves..nd i was sorri for the call bc i felt i made u sad i love tho babe nd im sorri that i said all that

 

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