Thursday, May 04, 2006

I wish you were here I Miss You more Each second I breathe You Restin' In Peace Forever I'm acceptin' you free A blessin to me I see you dressed in all black Smilin at me Happy, knowin everything's alright If Only I could hear your voice and your laughter Just one more time My chest would be filled up with sunshine. August 11, '04 Thats when the gates of heaven opened up for you to stoll thru.
R.I.P *~*David Charles Watkins*~* "My Big Brother"
November 6, 1984- August 11, 2004

Hell is where I am, so dark, so cold, so lonely
No one else is here, I am the one and only
I sit here in the dark and think of my sad life
I should have ended it all when I had the knife
Why was I the chosen one- taken to this place?
Maybe, 'cuz to people I mean nothing, I was born the world to disgrace
I hurt inside real badly, no one cares to see my tears
I have no happy feelings in me, I haven't for 17 years.
Nothing makes me happy, that's not the way it goes
I hide all my pain with a fake smile... I'll never let it show
People will never see exactly who I am
And even if they cared to try, they'd never understand
So, for now, I'll sit here all alone, isolated from the world
forever lifeless, depressed and full of tears...
an unhappy little girl

All I wanna do is die
I've cried my last tear for you
You've pushed me so far, that I just
wanna die.
You broke my heart one too many times.
Now it's time for me to say good-bye.
I cut my wrist to see how much of your memory i can bleed.
I'm dieing to make your life easier, so you don't have me to always worry about me.
Never in my life have I felt this bad.
Never in my life did I think it would
be over a guy.
Now watch me I die.
Just remember that your the reason I'm doing this....
and in time maybe you'll realize what you missed.

Darkness in my soul... emptiness in my eyes. my brothers gone and life is cold and dark. The pain hurts deep within. Blood flows from my wrist like a river so pure. Softly killing myself day by day... so watch me bleed and watch me die.. for tonight is my last night. 5/21/05

sitting here going crazy thinkin bout what could have been. Wonderin what happened to you and why you just left without a word. Was you cheatin, or just tired of me. what went wrong. baby please tell me.
I'm crazy thinkin bout you, can't go on another day without you boy. my friends tell me to just move on cause you weren't worth anything, but baby they didn't see you like i saw you. so they can't say nuttin!
Boy I love you more than ever.
how could you break my heart like that.
you said you loved me and then just walked out
never thought an angel like you could ever break my heart.
Saw you the other day walkin down the street.....
you had a girl by your side guess you forgot about me.
2 years and you just find someone else... i must not have meant too much to you...
tell me how you really felt.. did you ever love me? or was I just your toy?
Boy I love you more than ever.
how could you break my heart like that.
you said you loved me and then just walked out
never thought an angel like you could ever break my heart. 4/26/05


My heart is like a river,
that runs so very deep.
In this river, in my heart,
there floats a secret love,
A love I cannot keep.
This love is for a short time,
to this I can abide,
but what I feel so deep inside
I surely cannot hide.
I want to hold you so bad,
within my loving arms;
I want to give my whole self up
to you and all your charms.
How do I fight these feelings
I have so deep for you
when all I want inside my heart
is to only be loving you.
I will adhere to your wishes,
I will not hound or fight
but when I go within myself
I will think of you day and night.
This love we have is forbidden,
we both belong to others
but until the day we have to part
we will forever be starcrossed lovers.
I give this passionate kiss to you,
this is yours to reap,
until the day when the time is right-
that you and I finally meet.
Until that day is upon us,
this secret we must keep,
this love I have within my heart
forever will be sweet...

Let's go to bed with our shoes on and jump rope in the rain
chase butterflies and sunrays and steal gold
from that infamous pot at the end of the rainbow
Let's ride backwards on horseback and eat ice cream with a fork
Let's be young and reckless and throw away our worries with the trash
Let's scream at the moon and shoot down the stars with water
Let's pray to the sun while it warms our skin
and sip lemonade through our noses
Let's walk barefoot through the grass and tell each other secrets
Let's laugh for hours until our sides ache and tears form in our eyes
Let's love each other for a lifetime
and hold hands until our palms grow slick with sweat
Let's remember days gone by... never to return
Let's share tender moments which cause us to blush
Let's be together, forever until our eyesight fades
and our hair turns gray
Let's walk side by side down an empty street and scream at the wind
Let's read each other books of dragons
and knights and dream of faraway lands
Let's be together forever, even after death
when we meet up in heaven and chase winged angels
Let's be lovers and friends and so much more to ourselves and others
and comfort one another in times of sadness
Lets be together for forever and ever and ever...

For My Grandpa...
i knew this man who is dear to my heart. suddenly one day it was all torn apart. this man taught me everything i needed to know, but i never really listened until he had to go. he gave me love and touched my life. it's all over now he no long has to fight. he tried to teach me right from wrong. the day he left... i wasn't very strong. he is gone now, its so hard to believe. this man is MY Grandpa. who in time i'll see.i'll see him again, this i know. the day will come when its my turn to go. so i'll hold him dear and close to my heart cause the day we meet i know we'll never be torn apart.
R.I.P *~*Charles Thomas Souders*~*
December 10, 1945 - December 3, 2005

1 Cuts:

At 3:39 PM, Blogger ♥___Kid.™ said...

woo wow babe those was good -tackles u- I'll see you tomorzz ^_^


Post a Comment

<< Home

About Me:

Name: Shandi
Age: 17 years old
Location: Lancaster, Ohio
Birthday: September 13th

>>I Love Amber! <<



Other Entries

Ambers staying this weekend woohoo! I wish my bro...
It's been such a weird week n I can't wait for it ...
Everything is falling down around me... nothing ha...
todays been so so.. i miss amber like so much righ...
i wish that my happy happy happy mood would have l...
I hate my life.... thats all I got to say.....
Right now..... I'm so confused.... like the feelin...
There ya go Amber! I love you!
This has been such a crazy day! I got in like tons...
I'm sitting here in my room bored out of mind whic...

I've been here...

March 2006
April 2006
May 2006
June 2006